I have a dream …

A really bloody exciting one which has just started to come together in my mind.

You know the funny thing about this studying for this MA is its abit like the magic eye – for hours and hours you read and study and read again and try to feel like a student and then suddenly (like tonight) the eureuka moment …

And now I feel I can run in my reflecting – I have a dream, a goal to work towards.  My experiences of where I am, what I do all start to make sense.

The funniest thing – I have the urge to laugh quite hysterically…  presure release maybe! But its amazing – I have seen my dream and its doable and possible and more than that it will be  a reality.

Thank you Jung, Carl Rogers, Kolb, Argyris, Myer Briggs and the other topology tests which sort of helped me to begin to see who I was…

And thank you Freire, Handy and Bandura for giving me the insight, the words and the way to make it happen.

Communities, its all going to be about communities but not for brands and not just social networks – so serve a far bigger purpose and to create social good.

My cousin killed himself on Monday and this has played such a part in my thinking.   What and why did he do it?  I have an idea if truth be told. He wa s a loner, awkard with people to the point of being rude, didn’t mean it but that was how he came across.  His marriage had disintergrated …  few friends, tough career and a family who whilst loving had survived the war both in Germany and in Japan so there was no room for emotions in his life, and as the oldest he could not be weak…

My family has just crashed with the news – this is a family who survived a japanese prisoner of war camp and nazi germany, this is a family who have struggled to rebuild themselves.   For one of us to have said that death was more comforting than life such was his pain, its almost too hard to unbearable for those he left behind.

I dedicate this dream to Juergen Mertz who left this earth on Monday 3rd March for I hope a place in heaven with Opa and Oma who will help to take the pain away.

God bless you Juergen and keep you safe.

And God look after Christian, Carien, Mechtild, Christoph and the rest of my family during their time of grief.